5.25.2010

Dear God

Dear God,



I am sorry to bother you but I was recently told that we can actually ask for specific things. I hope this is true. I had no idea. If this is not true, then you will have to take this up with my therapist, because I am pretty sure she has been telling more people than just me. So here goes.


First of all I am not really asking for anything in particular at least I don’t think so. I am asking for an easy day. Do you know what that means? Let me explain that to you so that there are no misconceptions. I would hate for that to happen.


I just want one day (24 hours to be exact) to be easy. No hassles, no problems, no issues, no situations. Gosh, just the thought about that makes me giddy. I don’t think I have ever in my entire life had an entire day that was “easy”. I would love to be able to experience 1 day (24 hours) of that.


A Sample Easy Day


Get up in the morning, feed the animals have them eat whatever it is I give them without them acting like spoiled brats like their grandma made them into. Give them their medicine without having to use the Jaws of Life to open Chip’s mouth to get his 3 syringes of meds in and as for Tee-Tee it would be nice if she wouldn’t be so darn nervous. Go check on mom (well this is only while she is sick, when she is not, she is always the first person up), check the litter boxes and have no messes. You see Chip has this habit of perching on the edge of his litter box so sometimes it tilts flips over so you can imagine what kind of fun filled mess that makes. That is always nice to wake up to first thing in the morning. Once I am up, I need to help mom with checking her blood sugar level (so if you could make sure there are no errors on the machine and we get enough blood with the first prick), doing a breathing treatment (just let everything hook up easily), and giving her the IV push medicine that is needed (let the IV still be good and not blown so we can use it and not have to make a trip to the infusion clinic). Depending on what time I am done with this, I will either figure out something for breakfast or lunch aka brunch. I will make us something to eat (so if you could make sure this goes smoothly, with no burning or dropping or anything like that) and then clean up (if this could go smoothly as well, no dropping things or making a mess). While I am making beds (it would be nice not to trip over myself, I can’t tell you how often I do that these days (I never used to, well that was before all of this LUPUS stuff)), and cleaning or doing laundry (being able to remember what I was doing would be nice and not forgetting to put something in the laundry would be great too). If I have to get moms oxygen ready for a trip out, your help is GREATLY appreciated. I mean it seems that lately it just does not want to cooperate no matter what I do. I mean it is a simple thing; you attach the regulator to the oxygen tank. However it doesn’t seem to want to go that smoothly anymore. I have to work and work and work with it. Can I tell you that it really tries my nerves? I mean I know you are busy and all, but you have had to hear my crying and begging you for some assistance. It is imperative that mom has oxygen and that it works, so this isn’t something I can just not worry about and forget about it and not deal with it. I can put it off to the side and try again later which is what I have found myself doing several times over the last several days. It keeps leaking. SO PLEASE CAN YOU HELP ME OUT HERE???? Can you make it so that the oxygen tanks just attach to the regulator with no issues? Ok... that is a specific request. So out of this whole letter, so far I have one specific one. I mean I could have started out with, when I wake up could you make sure that I feel refreshed and have energy and don’t hurt all over. BUT I didn’t do that. I know that is specific…but the way I look at this is I have this for a reason and although I may not know what that reason is I will eventually.


Anyway, I am a firm believer that GOD (that would be you) doesn’t give you more than you can handle. Although as we both know there have been a few times when you have waited till I was on my knees till you lifted me up. I get that, I really really do. However, I thought that maybe if I sent you a letter it might make more of an impression on you and let you know that I could really use some assistance right about now. Know what I mean?


So am I asking for too much? Let’s review…


I am not asking to be “healed” although let’s face it if you wanted to throw that my way, I sure the hell wouldn’t decline it. (Yes, I just cursed in my letter to GOD, b/c he knows me and he gets me, we are cool that way). If you want to heal mom now that I would be willing to discuss, because let me remind you, I would gladly give up an arm/leg if that was at all possible, but we had already discussed that, so unless things have changed, I know what the answer is already.


I just want to have a day without an upsets, or catastrophes or hassles. Is that so much to ask? I don’t even expect or want this on a daily basis just once would be nice; however, if you want to do it more often for me, you know I will gladly accept it.


Sorry it has been so long since I have written. I promise I will write more often.

Love,


Tammy

PS.  If you need the name of the therapist that told me you take specific requests let me know, I just assumed you would know who it was.

1 comment:

  1. Stoppping from SITS! I am praying that you get your heart's desire.

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