7.06.2010

Can you point me to the exchange department please?

I was the strange kid that always said I knew (in a roundabout way) ahead of time what my life was going to be like. I have always felt known that I picked my family. I know that may sound strange to some of you… but it is true. Truth be told I honestly don’t remember it to be exactly like this. I am guessing I must have forgotten some things or pushed the not so fun filled thoughts out of my mind. I remember picking my parents out, and knowing that I would have some sort of illness, but not to this degree.



So I am here asking if anyone would be so kind as to point me in the right direction to the exchange dept. Heck I would be thrilled with a Pick-A-Part . Don’t get me wrong I would never trade my parents (not to say they have never driven me up a wall at times), but this whole health issue for both my mom and I … well I am pretty over it.


My mom is 63 and I am in my 30’s (cough cough), 38, so I think we have dealt with all of our health issues long enough. I would love to say that we would like to be overhauled completely, but I am pretty sure they are not doing that as of yet. However, if you happen to know of a place that is, by all means do let me know! I am hoping that will happen soon, at least in my lifetime.


I am not looking for cosmetic procedures; I am looking for necessary procedures.


Like for Mom – It would be great if both of her knees could get back to working order to where there are no complications anymore, along with her back. Even better, have her lungs back at 100% or at least 80% and then she wouldn’t need the oxygen. While we are there, can we fix all of her innards that seem to be bothering her too? I mean if we are going to do this, we might as well do it right. So let’s just get all new ones, better safe than sorry. Last but certainly not least, is there any way we can take all of her pain away? Now that would be AWESOME.


For Me- I would ask for no pain as well. I would ask to have my balance back and no more tremors. Most of all, I would ask for a new brain (no more migraines that last weeks at a time, my memory and speech to be back to the way it was before my illness). A new stomach so I don’t end up sick every other day and unable to leave the house, because let me tell you that is always so much fun (NOT!). A new heart would be good, since I have already had a heart attack. Oh... I know what about new skin, I always loved being able to be in the sun. Now I can’t even drive in my car without 55 SPF and I still get sunburned. I am not asking to be able to go back to my high school days and be the sun goddess I was, just so that I can walk from my door to my mailbox and not get fried, that would be nice.


At times I think I would love to trade my life… but realistically I wouldn’t be who I am today if I hadn’t gone through everything I had. It still makes the whole “illness” and “sick” thing get old. No matter how I look at it and try and deal with it, it just does.


For now, I will stick it out, because that is what I do. I will keep my eyes open for the Pick –a-Part of body organs/limbs and hopefully I will luck out!!

1 comment:

  1. Ugh! Tammy, I really do hate it that you are have to face so much. No, I do NOT feel sorry for you (because I know you hate that) but I do wish your load was a bit lighter. Keep the blog's coming - I am always interested to hear the latest stories from you.

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